It’s that time again I have something new in mind that I really want. Last year it was my lip ring and now it’s another tattoo. I planned on getting it last week but with money issues I had to put a hold on it. Now idk when I’m going to have a chance to go.

I don’t believe there is a time for someone to pick and chose when to think of their children. Once you have children they are your first priority and as any adult would say “I don’t care what happens to me, all that matter is; Are my children Okay?”

I will NOT have pity or sympathy for those who dare to put their wants before the needs of their children. If someone does something wrong the first thing on anyone’s mind should be. THE KIDS.

Adults know every possible consequence to their actions. A child only thinks to play and explore the world. A child doesn’t deserve to suffer from the choices of an adult.

Currently, I’m looked at as a bitch and a cold person. IDC what I’m called.The second I found out about trouble my only concern is the kids even if that means for me to sacrifice the only free time I have before school begins that I was going to take to find a job and work on my license to worry about only the children. If you dare to think about yourself, your feelings of wanting someone who you already know brings problems with them then I will not care for you or that person. Children have their entire lives to live and I will not have them to be cared for by the person who brought problems to them nor will they be in their home wondering where is their parent. They need to think that their parent is home and that they are only spending time with their family members.

If you know your a person with baggage and have brought issues to a family. Stop thinking about love because if you love them you will know to stay away. Love can be found again and again. its better to be patient and wait for that better person to come along than to settle. There is always someone better. Also, what happens to those that put themselves before their kids? Can you take a guess?

I found two full time positions god I’m hoping I get one I need it! Cross your fingers for me everyone I need this job I graduated two years ago!

Why is it when I get engaged I’m still supposed to make all the time for my family when people forget I have a new additional family to spend time with. I don’t have to justify why I don’t want to go somewhere to anyone. My mom is the only person that agrees with me. She encourages me to do it because once ur married it’s not just about me anymore the same goes for him..

Anyway the wedding plans r kinda coming along I still have to go dress shopping, florist shopping and look for centerpieces… Oh and I still haven’t purchased invitations lol I know it seems like according to Facebook that I’m newly engaged when I’m actually not lol. Planning is so nuts and I have to somehow make time to get my nuclear credits done by the 30th idk if I can I might call the nuclear board and ask if it’s by the 30th or by the expiration of my certification which is the 31st of May? Ugh I’m dizzy from typing in the car

Ta-ta

So happy.. Now I can focus on the wedding planning and getting my credits for nuclear.. I’m really full now from eating food from Trinidad. Lol later days

Free from math class! NEVER TAKING AN ONLINE MATH COURSE AGAIN. took too much of my personal time when i have other priorities.

UMF is coming up soon and I’m not going =( its become so big that tickets sell out super fast and im like “where are all there electronic music fans coming from?” in 2010 it was not hard to buy tickets in february, or in march and now tickets are selling out by the beginning of January on top of the price going from $190 to $300. pooh! gotta try to watch the movie “Can you feel it” maybe get a slight experience of what UMF is like behind the scenes.

Maybe I’ll go to Gryphon that weekend and enjoy music there. until then I’ll ride around in my car listening to the Electric Area channel on XM radio.

Why should some people let their life decisions reflect on what others will think of them? Right now I’m going through something that the only thing i need is advice not opinions and i don’t care what anyone has to say on my choices. My father on the other hand, lets peoples opinions get to him about me and he of all people should know it really doesn’t bother me. he was against me getting my lip pierced, tattoo, dressing like a rocker as a kid and i did it anyways. Even with the people outside of my family know I’m outside of the box. I like different things and do as I say and that’s all. whats wrong with that? No one thought i should go blonde but when i did they said i looked good…same thing applies to peer pressure into doing bad things.

why try to stop someone from taking a big step in life that is a good thing only because you disagree? Just be happy.

goodnight tumblr peeps..I’m off to figure out how to change my blog layout and to get CEU’s for my nuclear license.

Something about evanescence ugh.. Her voice is so amazing whether you like her music or not no one can deny that the woman has this incredible voice. I have listened to her almost every day of my life since I first heard her in 2003.. Her music has made such an exact replica of my life n I can’t hear her without getting this urge to want to sing along. At her shows I go nuts! She’s even better in person and I was so glad Yvan got to experience it..Lol

It’s true what teachers say your whole life “study what you learned that day in school” n it works because that way when it’s time to study for a test your not cramming.. I messed up with history by leaving some notes home n don’t be fooled people just because a test is open book doesn’t mean you don’t study. You will spend all ur time looking up stuff then to just use your book or notes as a quick reference n tests r made a harder on purpose.
— Math is a skill that has to be done everyday. Don’t we all remember how much we were drilled to do addition subtraction multiplication division in elementary school. Any math level can be that easy with practice if we didn’t practice that much then as an adult u would know what 2x2=
—Science is merely your desire to understand why things are the way they are in this world.

My methods of studying are this:
-nap 30min-1hour right before it helps ur memory n you don’t get sleepy (it’s scientifically proven)
-make flash cards n review them very day anywhere you go. I even go to the mall while studying anatomy
-read n recite outloud what you just read till you understand everything in the page then go on to the next page
-perhaps making a chart on the computer of summarizations of words or phrases and review that the next day
-or make an outline of a chapter
- review things till you can’t stand looking at it.
- you know you have memorized it when you can easily say it without stopping to think

It’s a lot if stuff but it really works I got good grades in college while doing my degree after figuring out how to push myself

Ta-Ta tumblr people have a great day!

Sometimes I feel annoyed with myself or the situation when I go to a club and barely dance. Its just difficult when I don’t even know the songs, and when Spanish songs come on I dance to that since its the only ones I know and it makes me feel a sense of “home”. It sucks I feel like I’m the loser that just stands there and gets hit on but I mean if anyone that doesn’t listen to rock goes into a rock concert they aren’t going to have as much fun because its not their “scene”.

Plus I just don’t understand how people dance to Rack City and Nicki Minaj.. People look at me and I know they think I’m like an oddball since I’m not into rap whatsoever and assume i’m picky and I’m actually into a broad range of music. If I go somewhere to dance I like hearing music that makes me want to dance to the beat, not that I’m just dancing to dance because thats what people actually do when rap comes on. That’s why I love techno because you just move to the beat and there’s no specific way to dance to it and spanish (no need for explanation) Here are my reasons for being a party pooper:

-Sober

-Don’t know the music

-Don’t have my close girlfriends or relatives with me

-If everyone I’m with is dancing in a circle and Im just not in it since I dont like the music, if I start to dance alone random men come up to me to dance n I hate that! Especially when they just start grinding behind you without even asking.

-I know I’m not the greatest dancer and without someone there with me I feel like I’m being watched so it makes me uncomfortable which I am because I’m approached by men if I’m just standing there.

I like to go out just to get out but hearing the same music thats played on Power96 over and over even in the same night drives me nuts..I’ll hear rack city 3 TIMES. really? if ur a dj you should know that theres other music out there and not create ONE playlist and just replay that every weekend. thats why i like when my boyfriends brother would DJ, he plays dance music and mixes it up and he actually plays current spanish music. South Florida DJ’s should really know that Suavemente, and Gasolina don’t really appeal to people anymore. Spanish artists have continued to make music since 2005 you know..

Excuse my venting.. its just I like to dance and not hear the same 20 songs every weekend.